An End and A Beginning

Where to begin? There has been so much change on the outside and in. I started out months ago with one goal in mind and the path has been winding. I've taken a meandering route to reach here and now. I am so grateful for all that I have learned along the way and am looking forward to learning much much more. I would love to be able to sum up all my learnings, put them behind beautiful bullet points specifically chosen for the momentous wisdoms that I've discovered. The treasures would ensure that my life from this point on will be filled with joy, amazement and delight. I'm not quite there yet. The clarity is coming.

Some things that are crystal clear:

I am ok as I am, right now.
Everything is happening just as it should.
I have the power to attract my dreams... if I dare dream them and then hold them in my heart.

I am closing the door on this chapter and eagerly await the next :)

Happy Birthday, Merry Christmas, Happy New Year

Wouldn't it be nice if we could celebrate each day as if it were those 3 days all rolled up into one? What a special day that would be! Life should be like that. Yeah, we all know the "Live Each Day" motto. It sounds like a good idea. It's harder to put into practice. It might be easier if we could wake up each day with the same excitement we have on any of those days. Maybe I'll try pretending that each day is Christmas, New Year and my birthday. Try to capture the anticipation and happiness that is so effortlessly associated with those special days. Starting each day with that feeling in my heart sounds like a great plan.

The Secret to A Life You Want

One little question could change your life. What could that be, you might ask? What's making you feel good, right now? That's it. That's all.

What if we go through life looking for what's good, what's right? Life, as we know it, would change instantly. Of that, I am sure! We are conditioned to look for all the things that are wrong, the ones that are making us feel bad, the things we don't want in our lives. What if we could make this one little shift and start trying very hard to see what is right in our lives? Just imagine what a difference it could make!

Makeovers

I love makeover shows! They never fail to bring tears to my eyes. I feel their joy when they reveal a new Self to the world. I think of it as getting one step closer to recognizing their own true beauty. They get to "try on" a persona that they would never have imagined for themselves. They are getting nudged outside of their comfort zones and may see a new reality for themselves. I'm so excited for them.

Welcome to the Dark Side

I realized how much energy I spent trying to push away negative thoughts and feelings. Along the way, they have been assigned to the "you-can't-see-the-light-of-day" category. To be a good and positive person, I must never acknowledge the existence of such things. What an exhausting effort it takes to push them out!

It is such a relief to welcome them in. Hello there, why don't you come on in and sit awhile. Have some tea and biscuits. I will consciously decide whether to invite you to stay or politely thank you for stopping by and voicing your opinion. Welcoming these dark thoughts and feelings does not mean accepting them and acting on them. I am learning that in order to be a whole person, there is no denying the dark side.

Work-in-Progress

It is finally OK for me to be a work-in-progress. I am enjoying the process and am excited to see what is around the next curve.

Dumb and Dumber

Sometimes I feel like I am a child learning English all over again. At first I felt dumb AND dumber about this. Now, I am much kinder to myself and have had this insight.

When we work in one environment, we are immersed in one vocabulary. Then if this work is draining and we are too exhausted to do anything much in our personal time, we don't develop any other vocabulary. Workspeak does not work for our inner landscapes. That's what I found out when I tried to find the words to describe what was going on inside my head and my heart, when I finally heard its beat again. When I found that my heart had messages for me, that voice had a narrow choice of words to use. That explained my wonder when I encountered "new" words. It was almost like I was seeing them for the very first time. They were long lost friends. Slowly these dear friends are coming back to me and I am again in awe as they come together to help me find my way back to my heart and soul.

Should's

Those darn should's have been following me wherever I go. They've been my constant companions for so long now that I am not even aware of them anymore. Now that I'm more awake though, I see them trailing me. No matter where I am, there they are too. I'm not going to try to run away from them though because that'll just make them run faster and stronger. No, best thing to do is just to see them for now. If I acknowledge them, maybe just maybe they'll disappear on their own..