Dumb and Dumber

Sometimes I feel like I am a child learning English all over again. At first I felt dumb AND dumber about this. Now, I am much kinder to myself and have had this insight.

When we work in one environment, we are immersed in one vocabulary. Then if this work is draining and we are too exhausted to do anything much in our personal time, we don't develop any other vocabulary. Workspeak does not work for our inner landscapes. That's what I found out when I tried to find the words to describe what was going on inside my head and my heart, when I finally heard its beat again. When I found that my heart had messages for me, that voice had a narrow choice of words to use. That explained my wonder when I encountered "new" words. It was almost like I was seeing them for the very first time. They were long lost friends. Slowly these dear friends are coming back to me and I am again in awe as they come together to help me find my way back to my heart and soul.