Resistance is Not My Friend

I figured out weeks ago that surrendering is a good thing. Oh but my heart wasn't in it, only my head.

I tried to relinquishing my desperate grasp on the semblance of control. The illusion that I can will things to happen in my life or that I can manage to create life in detail the way I think it should be. I thought that if I learned it once, that it's good enough. Right? Wrong! Isn't it a harsh reality to realize that this lesson needs to be practiced every single day. It's so easy to forget. I realized that I am once again struggling against something I have no control over. I stopped. When I remembered to stop and surrender, life wasn't so hard.

My insight: My habit and fallback position is to resist and squirm and struggle. My lesson: Surrendering is a daily practice.