Lessons From A Clogged Drain

Picture this. It's an hour or so before a showing of our apartment and the kitchen sink has decided to stop draining. It's only been four years since we've lived here. It has NEVER done this before. Am I the picture of calm? NO! No amount of yoga, meditation, self reflection, self growth is available to help me through this crisis. You would think the world was ending. I saw our hope of a sale going down a drain that wasn't draining at all! Past the panic, I was asking myself what the heck could the universe be trying to teach me. What possible reason was there for this particular technique??? I have not found the lesson yet. What I have decided is that maybe I don't need to know the reason after all. Accept it for what it is.

Craving Silence

The city is noisier than usual today. Life is noisier. Maybe it's just that I'm craving silence more these days. Space and silence are the core of what I believe will make me happy for the next while.

Space, wide open space so that I might feel connected. Silence so that I can hear my heartbeat.

Be Busy Being

Slowing down would be easy if I could just remember to do it. Why is it so hard to get this one simple thing right? Not really asking too much, is it? I equate slowing down to being present in the moment. When I slow down, I automatically live the moment. But it is way too easy to get lost in the things that saturate the day. The things that always need to get done. The things that line up to be worried about. There is never a shortage of those things that only exist in our mind, the things that could go wrong, the things that are not materializing, the things that might or might not ever happen. It is easy to get lost in those thoughts.

I just woke up and found that I had been missing my moments. Ironically, while I was running to catch up with this moment, it was gone. So now, I am just going to be. I am busy being.

I'm dusting myself off. Made myself a reminder so that, at least for today, I will remember. There is only ever THIS moment and it is enough.