Heart Exercises

I have an old school exercise book, you know the kind with 3 holes and big lines that kids use, that I started using to list "Feeling" words for myself. They are, of course, neatly arranged alphabetically. I had to fight from putting colourful flags on the pages to mark the transition from one letter to the next. I digress. I wanted them handy so that I could use them as I try to live from the heart more instead of from my head. I am shocked and amazed when I look at some of these words and they seem totally foreign to me. I feel like a child learning them for the first time. Could it be that I have lived all these years without being aware of them? It's such an odd feeling. I didn't have to resort to the dictionary on any of them so my head was clearly aware of them. And yet I feel like I am actually seeing them or truly feeling them for the very first time. Have I been living such a narrow life from the heart that I only needed a handful of adjectives to describe how I felt? That is the only rationale I can come up with. My heart muscles need a workout!

Goal from now on. Step one - Relearn words to express my range of emotions. Step two - Tune in and use those words.