Growth Spurt

Where is the fanfare? I didn't hear any trumpets, drums and disappointingly there wasn't a parade. Darn. Shouldn't such momentous things come with some outward celebration? I've had a revelation that has just very gently and naturally flowed into my life. It was, again, at the hand of a book that was "delivered" to me. What is this big pivot in my life? The truth that I am trying on is: what if who I am is enough?

I can't describe the relief that this possibility brings to my soul. I have tried for years to be better, to get it just right, and to be the person I think I should be or want to be. What if who I am is enough? It never even occurred to me that in trying to "improve" myself, I might have been telling myself all along that I wasn't good enough. It gives me much food for thought.

There is still the hard part of getting to know who I am, who I really and truly am underneath the roles I have created. But just the thought that all I need to do is figure out who I am, that's tons better than struggling to be someone else, a better version of me. I am going to ponder this new theory, try it on for size to see if it fits. I'm hoping that it does, I feel lighter already.